letters to self

I am writing a letter
a letter to myself
I shall never send it
I will keep it with me

I just can't face it
these things I write
the truth is biting
and I am brutal

I just had to be honest
so many failures
I had to mention them
the dreams never pursued

I write because I care
because I am let down
I have been hurt
and your to blame

I can't send it
I will just seal it
the truth sits
never to be opened

my courtney, my courtney

my courtney, my courtney
you are on my mind
my baby, my baby
'bout you all the time

i miss you, i miss you
when you've just gone
oh honey, oh honey
don't be to long

your always, your always
on the tip of tounge
i hear you, i hear you
in each song I sung

my sweetie, my sweetie
I'm feeling so alone
my courtney, my courtney
baby please come home

your letter

I got your letter today
it spoke to me
I heard every word
like it was all for me
the sounds raised me up
then knocked me down
it felt like the ocean
and only I could hear it

I saw your letter today
it was on a shelf
with a price tag on it
it is buried in the middle
surrounded by others
I wanted to hide it
even though I have it
I bought your letter again

heard your letter this morning
it came blaring out
to awake me
from my clock radio
I wondered who else
who else awoke to your words
what could it mean to them
did they really hear it

I saw your letter today
it was on my tv set
it was put to images
I didn't understand
I see you singing it
but know you're just pretending
just moving your lips
to words that meant so much

I heard your letter today
it went zooming by me
from a car going to fast
I only saw them for a moment
but knew they couldn't understand
how could they ever
they didn't hear it
not like I did

I heard your letter today
it filled the arena
bouncing off the walls
and off the cheers
it never sounded this big
and felt so small
it wasn't for me
no longer just mine

I listened to your letter today
it had been a while
I didn't expect much
but it all happened again
my heart found the beat
again it filled my little room
and it just for me
thanks for understanding